Have you ever looked back at old letters or poetry that you’ve written, only to be a bit puzzled by handwriting that doesn’t look at all how you currently shape letters? Or wonder what you were thinking at the time you wrote it, or even if it’s really yours? It’s almost like a geological dig of sorts, reading through a stack of papers that have been sitting forever on a bookshelf, a verbal time machine, taking you back. What was it that Heraclitus once said? “No man ever crosses the same river twice, because he’s not the same man, and it’s not the same river.” I think the same can certainly be said for all of us, including choreographers.






Deep sigh… it was the Spring of 1986, and we were getting ready for a show. I’m looking back at old programs now and wondering what I could possibly have been thinking?
The title that most deeply concerns me is A Study of Cultural Affectations and the Relative Merits of Time Travel but the others are Solid Iron Pyrite, (A pun on the Solid Gold television show?) Shadow on the Heart, Television Series, Sanitized for Your Protection, and Night Logic/Feel Like a Broken Record. This is also the first year we began doing lecture demonstrations on dance…
Dancers in the company were Leslie Addiego, Denise Chakerian, Andrea Needle, Vera Tsai, and myself. Cultural Affectations was really an opportunity to showcase a wide range of dance forms, from my training in African ethnic, to jazz, and modern, while taking a somewhat comic look at how time and cultural perspective changes everything. Television Series was the first of several pieces that explored the influence of television on our lives and Night Logic was one of my first ventures into recording my voice and creating the sound score for a work which I did in collaboration with Chris Bauer. It was a look at how things often feel different in the deep of night… those nights we either can’t fall asleep or wake and feel lonely and apart and not quite ourselves, viewing our lives from a very different perspective than that of daytime.
Sanitized was a repertory piece performed the year before, while Shadow on the Heart… more “therapy” with music by Dan Fogelberg and Poulenc. I think that dealing with sorrow was one of the major themes of my early work… and that perhaps, it was as well received as it was because it is a universal theme…